Warm revolutionary greetings of love and solidarity to you. I'm in the highest of hope this epistle will find you in the best of physical health, psychogically stagnate, mentally coping. Although, I will admit, that I'm in high spirit this epistle will be the beginning to a wonderful friendship.
Please, allow me to say, this is my first time trying to obtain ones friendship this way, but I have tried to obtain ones friendship several time since I've been here, and there has been a couple of people / pen-pals / friends who's came into my life saying they wish to be my friend / pen-pal, but as time passed, so did they. For, I'm truly wanting to share a true friendship with someone, and I will give 101% (percent) of myself always...
Allow me to tell a bit about myself : as you may notice my name above, and my address, if you decide to write. I'm a African-Amican, born April 23rd, 1971, which makes me 29 years old for I just had a birthday. I've been incarcerated (death row) since I was 19 years old, for a robbery and murder I did not commit, but I was at the scene of the crime when it happened, but I never pulled the trigger or stabbed anyone. I have one brother and one sister who I have not seen or really heard from since 1994-95. My mother is the only one that I have in my life, she's my heart, my soul, and my strength. Without her there's no me. I have one son who I haven't seen since May of 1994, for his mother take him away from me, in other words she just will not allow him to come down and visit me anymore, I love him as well and miss him. Since my incarceration I've grown a great deal, I have a different outlook on life than some people, at the same time, I enjoy reading, (history, culture, fiction and some non-fiction.) Books ; I enjoy listening to music ( jazz,R&B, rock & roll, some country); writing poetry (sometimes), and exercising. We are not allowed T.V.'s so I can't watch the local and world news like I enjoy or the animal shows (discovery channel) and certaing sitcoms. I also enjoy reading my Holy Quran and Holy Bible, for I am a believer.
Allow me to say, to help their fellow man or woman. Many are afraid of expressing loving ways. Its a shame when you think about it. Why should we hesitate to express such a positive feeling. Its vital that we do to 'everyone in this world,' , especially to the children growing up in society nowadays. In my life things pleasant and least of all loving. In all my past experiences it is "love" is learned. Not as one learn math or biology, but in every day living from their atmosphere. It was hard considering my surrounding although I learned it isn't hard for one who's willing to go deep within themselves.
I want to share a friendship
with you. Now many have of being a true friend which is touching
but good intention are not tangible. A "true friend" is something very difficult to be, which I've learned. I'm not saying that I've mastered this, but as I mention earlier, give 101% (percent) of myself to make things work. For I want to build one of the most "Beautiful" and "profoundest" friendships ever endured between two intelligent in our situation. I think in order for this to succeed its calling on us to be unselfish in every aspect of the word. Just remember, "it's not the friendship that makes the individuals, but the individuals which makes the friendship..."
Take care of yourself,
and know that there is someone longing for your friendship. So continue
doing that which the willingness to love, and continue doing that which
keeps a smile upon your face.
PS.. Here is a poem that
I wrote sometime ago
HE PACES AND PACES THE
CAGE SEARCHING TO BE FREE,
WALLS AND WALLS AND IRON BARS
ARE ALL THAT HE CAN SEE.
HE FEELS BUT HE NEVER
FRUSTRATION, FURY, FELINE AH'S,
PACING, PACING NEVER RESTING
HE CAN ONLY WALK AND WAIT.
NO ONE SEES THE DEEP DARK
PAIN THAT HAUNTS HIS DESPERATE EYES,
NO SOUND ESCAPED HIS SOUL
HE NEITHER SCREAMS OR CRY'S.
I KNOW HIS PAIN,
I TOO AM CAGED
SILENTLY PACING IN CAPTIVITY,
I KNOW THAT ACHE AND ENDLESS LONGING
FOREVER TO BE FREE...
By LaRoyce L. Smith
LaRoyce L. Smith 999007
12002 FM 350 South
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