HOWARD NEAL
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From Howard Neal's pen-pal request to
the CCADP. June 8, 1999.
(errors are as in the original.)
Smile God love you more
than anyone.
Hello Friend. I hope and
pray this letter will find in very good spirit today.
My name is Howard Neal.
I am on dead row. I have been on dead row since 1981.
I am looking for a friend
to write to me. It is very hard for me to find a true friend to write
me.
I hope you can read my handwrite.
I have learn to read and write since I been here.
I never had a chance to
go school before. I know I still have alot to learn. I
want you to know I am not perfect in this life. I do love to learn
about things. You made not believe me, I have learn more in here I
had in my hold life. I was not for God help me in here I could
not make the long I have. Yes I turn my life over to God.
That the best thing every happen to me.
It has been about five year
ago. I know God love me very very much. The Holy Spirit
is teach me thing. The Holy Spirit is best teacher I never had.
I believe the Lord is coming back in my lifetime. I wish God
would come back right now. I would been very happy to
see the Lord.
I still have alot to learn
about God. I love to read my Bible. God word
is more real I am, everything will pass way, but God word will not pass way.
One day we going to have a new body like Jesus Christ. Do you
believe in Christ Jesus ? I sure hope so.
Time is run out.
The only hope we have on
this life is Jesus. If you do not have God in your life, life is no good.
I was born and raise in
Mississippi. I was born 1953. I am 45 years old now.
My birthday is September 14. I am still a very young man.
I am white. I have brn hair, eyes haz, HI 140,
HI 68. My people
do not have anything to do with me. My mom she had 12 kids.
All my brothers and sisters got adopted when they was very little.
I do not know where my brothers and sisters is today.
Only God know. My mom threw me away like a dog when I was
about 8 years old. When I was little no one want me, because
they said I could not learn anything.
My dad was very mean to
me, my dad was a real bad alcohol. He spend all his money
on alcohol. He beat me up alot. My mom
and dad they fight all the time, they try to kill each other.
My dad did bad things to me. He was no good.
We have a little food to eat.
At nighttime my dad would
go out and steal out people garden. If I did not help him steal
out people garden, he would beat me up real bad. He was
very mean. My dad kill my dog.
He put my dog in a sack
through it in the creek. He did all kinds things like that. He
is dead now. He his been dead for a very long time.
My brothers and sisters did not grow up to other. I never had anyone
to love me when I was little. My own people hate me.
I do not understand that. I learn what love was since I been here,
I learn what love was in my Bible.
We live way back in the
wood in a old wood house. We had one room. Me and the kids we
slept on the cold flood. The house was very little. We did not
have no bathroom. We use the bathroom in the wood.
We got hour drinkwater from a little creek. We took a bath in the creek.
We did not have no electricity anything like that. I did not know
what a TV or a radio was till I got old. We cook hour food
in wood stove. We live off animals. I was very hard
on me. My own people
make fun of me. They told I was no good. This is something what
happen to me. It was very hard for me to get a job in the
free word. No one want to work with me. Because I did not know
anything. I learn thing the hard way. I did not have anyone to
teach me anything. I still think about my people alot.
I do get very lone in here. I wish
I had a good friend to write
to me and help me a little. Its very hard for me to find a friend.
I do need someone to help
me in here. I need a very good friendship. That way I have someone
to talk to. Do you ever get very lonely ? and want
someone to talk to ?
Sometime I wish I was dead.
I think I would been alot better off. I know I will be going to
alot better place. My time
is get very short. I have two more appeal left. Not
to long ago the court turn me down on my appeal. I do believe
the Lord has a purpose for my life.
God can do anything.
God is a very BIG. I have state lawyer work on my case.
He does
not care anything about
me. He is work for the state. My lawyer does not write to me.
He does not tell anything.
What would you do if you was me ?
You know one day we all
got to die, are you afraid to die ? I use to been afraid of dead,
not no more, because I have
Jesus Christ with me, each day, I hope you will write to me.
If you do not want to write
me I understand.
Please try to find someone
out there to write me.
Does your people care anything
about you ? What do you like to do in life ?
Do you have any animals
? I love animals very much. Animals are very smart.
I love to watch the birds and listen to them. Do you know animals talk
each other ? I wish I could understand them.
God made everything very beautiful. Alway remember God love you more
than anyone. You are very special to God. The Lord
make you in a special way.
No one is like you.
Do you have kids ? Some kids are alot smart I am, they learn
very fast.
I will keep you in my prayer.
God bless you. Please take care of yourself.
Your brother in Jesus,
Howard Neal
Howard Neal appears on the cover along
with Christian Charles Colson
Another inmate wrote the following penpal request for Howard, asking that you write!
Howard Neal age 45, d.o.b. 9/14/57,
white male, been on deathrow since 1981, 5'8, brown hair, Christian. Howard
is a simple and enjoyable fellow. He has a clear and uncluttered view of
life, and easily takes enjoyment in things most of us take for granted. Howard
has no formal education, having never been to school and has only learned
to read and write while being here on deathrow. (Please print) Howard loves
learning about many different things, but especially
about history and animals. And most of
all, he is a committed Christian,
not cluttered by theological bias or
denominational dogma, but in a pure
untainted child like simplicity in trusting
God. Howard is seeking and needs
caring and very patient friends who are
willing to share in his life, both the joys and the struggles, and who can
show him the love of a family, which he has never had, to guide and walk with
him in his journey of "living".
If you are a caring and patient person,
willing to commit to him, and keep your commitment, please write!
Howard has been overwhelmed with responses to his webpage and pen pal request.
He has since asked the CCADP to remove his contact information from his
page.
Howard Neal #04733
Please Contact the CCADP if you are interested in helping Howard
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